Those slow moments

You will go through a week, or month, or maybe even several months in life where it feels like progress is hard to come by. Like no matter how hard you try, nothing seems to work. Those clouds just look too thick to ever part.

Let me promise you, summer always comes, summer WILL come. You will find in-spiration within yourself. The universe will reward you for trying so hard and putting so much positive energy into it. Often the results for hardwork are not seen for months after the work itself. This is not something to worry about. Relax, stay confident and believe. It will come.

Wear your soul

The word soul carries a lot of additional meaning that it doesn't have to. When relating to the self, the soul is the combination of all sides, situations and spheres of consciousness you may ever project or experience. Your soul is who you are at the very core of your personality, it is shaped by your childhood and influences every state of your being. It is has the simplest desires and the warmest of emotions.

When you wear your soul you recognize and admit these simple requests made by your emotional consciousness. You are being the simplest form of yourself and also your highest self. Many of us loose what is good in life by throwing complexity at simple issues. We will argue over details when the pain is in the simple emotion. With people our emotions are always trying to connect, but our minds will be tripped up by such trivialities as language.

Wear my soul, and call me a liar.

When you wear your soul you are honest and truthful. When you wear your soul people will react in a positive way. When you wear your soul you separate the image of yourself from yourself. Many of us hold a false self image in our heads, this is shaped by who we were. Yet every day we progress and become something new. Yesterdays truth is today's bullshit. What was true yesterday may no longer be true. If you are confident today, this is how the world see's you. Yet a negative self image will damage your opinion of that situation. If you wear your soul, a negative self image is irrelevant, you KNOW, on every level that you ARE confident and people LOVE your company.

Your soul can commit no crimes, only in misreading our souls to we do wrong. Listen to your highest most basic self, connect with who you are at the core of your being. Wear your soul, wear your desires, wear who you REALLY are underneath and social or personal barriers. Let that person shine. The whole universe will benefit from it.

A song about persistence

Thrice - Stare at the sun

I sit here clutching useless lists
And keys for doors that don't exist
I crack my teeth on pearls
I tear into the history
Show me what it means to me in this world
Yeah in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind

I see the parts but not the whole
I study saints and scholars both
No perfect plan unfurls
Do I trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Yeah in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind (till I understand or go blind)

I know that there's a point I've missed
A shrine or stone I haven't kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn't met my fist
But I can't help feeling like I'm

Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign (waiting for a sign)
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes (and I won't close my eyes)

Huzzah!

Last night was awesome. Take my word for it, and rejoice.

Obscure Alliance

I have found an obscure alliance between achievement and laziness. Laziness dictates that you do nothing, and enjoy life, whereas achievement dictates that do something and forget about enjoyment. What happens when you take the best from both is you enjoy working.

The key is working towards something you enjoy. Now responsibilities will always get in the way, and I will be the first to admit practicalities often get in the way of progress. Yet if we are honest, we are all the best excuse makers in the world. We justify not wanting to do something as not being able to do something. This is a lie to ourselves and a lie to the universe. We can hide the lie from everyone but the validation of achievement. Achievement measures how honest we have been and how hard we have worked.

There is always something we can do. Always a way to progress. We have the choice, the capability we just need to find the desire. This is where we need inspiration. This is what my blog is for. To inspire myself and yourself. Now do something you enjoy, that will benefit you

Quotes of the day

Anger is a resistance to WHAT IS. You are resisting REALITY, rather than accepting it.

When you can honor and love and ACCEPT yourself fully and completely, it becomes EASY to accept the rest of the world just the way it is.

Realising potential, need help?

Adversity is something that will face any and all of us at some point in our lives. It’s not easy being a citizen in western society who “has it all”. Usually most people have to make some kind of sacrifice. Yet very few people use that knowledge to proactively manage their desires. People will not do something because “they don’t have time”, or most likely of all they don’t feel they can. This mindset is something that absolutely must be destroyed.

However bad or difficult it is for you to go out there and achieve your dream, someone, somewhere did it under worse circumstances. The only difference is they had more desire and pushed themselves further. If they can do it why can’t we? We can, and we will because it is what we want and nothing will get in our way.

If the answer seems so simple then why aren’t we all such high achievers? Usually its not just ourselves that hold ourselves back, other people subconsciously share their low esteem with us. If a persons self esteem can be thought of as glass of water, most people only know how to drink from your glass without filling it back up. It is surprisingly rare to find anyone who will actually believe in you fully. It’s a social disease that we are more worried about failure than the potential of success.

For example, the first time you said to your parents you wanted to be an actor, or footballer or perhaps astronaut. What was their reaction? They would have probably laughed at the child like innocence with which it was said but really not gotten behind you. If you try saying to a colleague/friend that you want to be an astronaut see what their reaction is. These people can be loving, great and wonderful people who would do anything for you but they are lacking an essential skill. They cannot fill your glass enough for you to realise your potential.

Realising the potential to self improve is half the battle, especially if the preceding paragraphs rings true with your own history. If we can learn to self improve, that in turn opens to the door to allow us to achieve anything we want. Indeed self improvement is paramount to success.

Quote of the day

If there is something about me I don't like, I'll change... If there is something about me you don't like, fuck you

Persistence: The Ultimate Virtue?

Failure cannot compete with persistence. It gets weak at the knees and all jealous whenever it is faced with persistence. Failure likes to control people, convince them to not bother, to give up, to stop believing. We know better.

I have been pushing hard for a long time to be able to launch businesses, be successful socially, and have a strong physique. It's taken me 6 years to get the kind of results I wanted when I started out and along the way I admit at times I felt it was impossible. Now I'm over the first hurdle, I have a plan and its starting to fall into place. To get this far took one thing persistence, and being impervious to discussion. "Is that all there is to life?" some will say, others "I just couldn't be arsed with that"... They do not know the secret of persistence.

Keep looking, keep trying new avenues, even when you think there is no possible way to do something, and what you have is a complete mess. Google every possible combination of your problem. You will find the light, and will get that little bit further. It reminds me of watching downloads on a 56k modem. Slow, agonizing, but every gain even small is a victory. The design of one of my sites just wouldn't work, and I couldn't for the life in me think how I could make it function and still look good. I spent 3 hours searching the web for the right code and then suddenly... One copy and paste and BOOM! Its beautiful again. Next task? Get the site working in IE... stupid browser.

Lesson for the day? Every day you have a hurdle to overcome, and when you do, there will be another waiting for you. Progress is having the desire to keep going even when you want to rest from the last hurdle.

Well well

What a weekend, and an inspired early week. Firstly, that FA cup final, how good?! I was lucky to have a voice by saturday evening. I also finally managed to get text on to one of my website designs, as soon as I tidy it up a little I'm ready to launch it. I'm so close to the future I see myself in every day.

Then there is wednesday evening which should be very fun, and thursday the photoshoot which should ensure me some model work too. Who works in an office any more? :D

Pre-birth Experience

When I'm at my best things just flow. I find the best way to achieve this state is to think "FUCK IT" and throw myself in the deep end. Its like I have become the social natural I always should have been.

The Mind is a prison constructed of positive and negative experiences, it exists on top of an emotional framework that cannot talk the Minds language and vice versa. Becoming truly emotionally honest with yourself, your desires on who you are is the most liberating experience in the universe. Acting on my desires was my issue for a long time. I admitted them verbally and knew they were there and tried to express them, but loosing your mind is essential... Loose all thought; act.

This is where it gets nuts...

There was an eternity before you were born where you existed in a happy pure emotional state. You were free yet bound by warmth, you had no confines and no concept of anything around you but felt loved. Then you were born... Meditation is attempting to get back to this state, our highest self is that state of being. When we become in touch with this self we our not thinking with our conscious minds, but being who we are... emotional, rational and life source

In effect it is letting go of the conscious that all "higher" experiences come from. They are actually the simplest experiences, the most basic, the most fetal. The people who meditate longest, monks, or David Blaine in his box feel a sense of unity with the world, a warmth and a happiness that they forget about in society or in daily life. They touch the sensation of being alive and are happy

We cloud this with our daily existence and cognitive masturbation as people who self analyze. Our daily lives get in the way of the greatest experience we can possibly have, being alive.

We need to simply be

Update

I really am poor at sticking to updating something like a blog every day.

Really poor. It seems the UK has discovered the joys of sunny weather and decided to make us all feel a lot better. I've never been one to suffer from seasonal affective disorder, but when the sun is out don't you just feel better? The download festival is now less than 1 month away, its going to be absolutley awesome. Great bands (hopefully) great weather, and great people. The banter that always comes out of the download festival is amazing, I'll have my best friends and favorite bands all in once place live!

When belief becomes reality

It's long been my opinion that for some reason everything I wish for will come to me, it will just take a while and frustrate the baked beans out of me in the process. We have all been there, stuck in the middle of a life change, a work change, a sex change... We know it has to be done, we believe in it with all our heart yet the time it takes throws doubt at us.

Yet despite this you keep your head down, you keep going, because YOU BELIEVE. You have the DESIRE and definite purpose. You know that above all things it would be a crime to give up. A day off is a mistake, quitting full time is a travesty. Never quit, acknowledge failures and move on to the next effort. Failure cannot possibly compete with persistence. Persistence will always win out by its very nature. Last night the months of practice and almost achievement, half victories and nearly examples became a cast iron victory. My new social skill set treated me to a wonderful night and worked an absolute charm. My social observations showed me everything I was doing was working, and even though my hair was ruined (something that has made me go home in the past and quit), I ended up getting the phone number of an extremely attractive hard to talk to girl... Who of course turned out to be really sweet when you get to know her. Never underestimate the power of the backturn.

Last night was so much fun, I had great people, a great city and great times. I have a new website idea and an incredible design that I'm very proud of. There is no option, I will be an amazing success because I BELIEVE.

Sunshine

Isn't it amazing how much better you feel when the sun shines? I mean I don't need the sun to feel good, in fact there was a time in my life when I used to hide from it because it burned me as a kid. Yet, everything just looks prettier. I feel inspired by being alive, lucky to exist and happier with every breath of air. There is no reason for this general feeling other than the sheer potential I see for the next 5 years of my life. I will be a success, of that there is no question. To achieve that requires determination, and persistent hard work.

Yet today I have an overwhelming urge to sit back and enjoy life... After all I am alive.

Practice makes... Boredom!

Practice makes boredom, results make excitement. Therein lies a nasty catch 22. In order to get results often you have to practice, or do you? Something strange I have observed is that when you throw yourself in the deep end and just "have a go" you will often surprise yourself with how well you perform. Yet there are many things in life you simply cannot achieve without some form of practice. My personal solution is to find a middle ground. Any form of practice where I'm doing the same thing over and over frustrates me. Yet a general pattern of activity where I can be creative is something I love to practice.

Take web development. Basically there are three or four main ways to make a website, beyond that everything is up to you. I adore coming up with a new design, giving birth to the latest creation and being lit by its awesome stature. I despise testing it for bugs, fixing broken links and checking for spelling errors. I'm an ideas guy, I'm built to inspire others and create. I can take an idea and turn it into 10x the idea in seconds. Implementation is best left to someone else.

The same is true socially, with practice you improve. You can do the same thing literally word for word, time and time again but therein you loose the golden goose (and the golden goose is beautiful). Instead I find seeing what you can come up with, and then reusing common conversations when things stall with new people, or potential business partners will help build a good level of rapport. In short, I think for me personally, trial and error is far better than pure practice.

Lazy days

When you have been awake silly hours and get home long after the sun has risen, the following day is assured to be less productive that it could have been. This bugs me mainly when I have work coming up the day after. The weekend has been a good one as ever, I even discovered a jacket I forgot about and rocked it like no other, yet I have a lingering sense of being on the edge of greatness whilst continually improving. It's an uphill battle and I haven't quite hit the apex just yet. The apex always seems one day away. I'll never quit, but one day, needs to be today already...